Last week I was not in a good place at all. I wrote two, very depressed posts but I'm glad I did. Writing them allowed me to get it all out, express what I had been supressing and take a deep breath out. I felt better as soon as I knew it was out and it meant that the weekend I just spent in Sydney for one of my closest friend's birthdays was a lot less tense.
I had an epiphany over the last few days. One of those, "I can't believe I didn't realise this before", moments that has left me feeling free and a little bit giddy.
It takes me a long time to settle down in a new environment but once I do, I become incredibly attached to the people and life within that environment that the prospect of moving on scares me. I think this has a lot to do with the amount of moving around I've done over the last couple of years. It seems as though I just become comfortable and happy in a place and all too soon I'm moving onto another. This time my anxiety over took me and I panicked by freezing.
I've definitely learnt a big lesson over the last couple of weeks; you need to live in the moment. Thinking too much about what tomorrow could be will drive you mental and enjoying what you have right now is a lot more likely to preserve your sanity.
My next step? To regain everything I let slide over the past four months. I'll let you know how that goes.
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